Recuperation and Renewal

After coming home from vacation, I needed a break. Before I could quite get my bearings back, I fell on the stairs and injured my knee. I don't mean to complain too much, but my knees have always been problematic, and that was not something I really needed. I have been hobbling around for almost a week, hauling my lame body up and down the stairs. The add more stress to the system, the boys and I got a cold. Thankfully, it was a pretty mild cold, but it did seem to make me feel very worn down. I started to feel like I have been tired and worn down since I had Evan 7 months ago. Now that I am feeling a little more like myself, I realize that it wasn't really true, just a temporary perspective. I have had periods of energy, especially associated with exercising and getting in shape.


After finally giving in and going to our room to lie down last night (before we put the kids to bed!), I texted the grandparents and invited them to take Benjamin tomorrow. I felt a pang of guilt, but reassured myself that I was sick and needed a break. I do SO love Benjamin, but recently he does take a lot of mental energy. I want to be able to respond to his needs in a calm and loving manner. I find that I am often disappointed by my responses, and that is even more tiring. So today is a day of rest, a day to reset. Evan is upstairs taking a good nap and I am taking some time for myself. I have plans, big plans. Its just a matter of picking one of them and seeing it through. Hopefully I will be posting images of my photo collage and various decorating projects in the near future. To be fair, let's shoot for the end of the year!


This is a reminder that we need to take care of ourselves in order to take care of others. I need this quiet mental space to renew my energy and be ready for Benjamin when he needs me. Its okay to ask for help and its okay to realize that you need a break. Now I just have to believe that and repeat it to myself daily. If only I could focus on the most important things, not getting bogged down in the minutia of daily life. This is probably God telling me that its time to get back to church and a Christ-centered way of life. Please God, help me to follow in your path and lead me into the light!