Sawyer Turns One Month Old!

Today Sawyer turns one month old!  It really has been somewhat of a blur, at least for me.  His turning one month also means that I have gone for a month without sleeping for more than two to three hours at a time.  This is when the sleep deprivation really starts to set in.  I am praying nightly that he will soon learn the very important art of sleeping through the night.  But seriously, I would be happy if he would just sleep a couple more hours at a time.  But, alas, this is what love is all about.  It is not about me and my sleep, it is about Sawyer getting what he needs from me in these early days.  How hard it is to remember this at three a.m. when one is so thoroughly exhausted that the tears start to flow!


Sawyer is slowly starting to emerge out of his "fourth trimester".  He is awake for slightly longer periods and he seems a bit more aware of his surroundings.  He loves to be warm in a thick blanket, loves to be held (of course), falls asleep and stays asleep in his car seat, and has cooperatively accompanied the family to several local restaurants.  So far, his two baths have been a definite hit.  Sawyer is also a sucker for the warmth of the summer evenings in Texas.  


He is so lucky to have two brothers, but I sometimes wonder about his safety with them running around all the time.  Evan does not seem to be aware or to fully comprehend that we must be very gentle with Sawyer.  On the other hand, Benjamin has been very sweet with him and often tells him, "Sawyer, its okay", whenever he is fussing.  Its pretty neat that Benjamin will try to soothe him if he wakes up and fusses in the car.  In fact, Benjamin insisted on sitting next to Sawyer in the car so he could watch him.  This is a luxury I did not have when I only had one baby riding in the car with me.   


All in all, its been a pretty good first month.  I will not lie and say that it is easy.  Even with all of the help I am getting, I wonder how long it will be until I can return to some of the activities I used to enjoy.  I am too tired to exercise and running errands with Sawyer still seems so daunting.  Then there is the ever-present question in my mind, "How will I meet the needs of all boys at once?!".  The answers, I am sure, will come with time.  There will be a time when this is the new normal.  Until then I will just have to take it one day at a time and remember to pray.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me

Phillippians 4:13